This past Sunday morning I watched a preacher as he preached his heart out on TV, as I watched, the camera pulled back and as the audience was panned I was shocked to see how few people there were in the building to hear him. There was a time you couldn’t get near the campus of that church, and to get him to come to your local church? Impossible. There are large works closer home that seem to have imploded, fallen in and on their own head, and I think what large congregations used to clamor for seats up front, and how prestigious speakers and singers wanted to be on those stages. As I thought about it, an old song crossed my mind, a verse says: “Tears and fears and feeling proud to say “I love you” right out loud, Dreams and schemes and circus crowds, I’ve looked at life that way. But now old friends are acting strange, they shake their heads; they say I’ve changed. Something’s lost but something’s gained in living every day. I’ve looked at life from both sides now, from win and lose, and still somehow it’s life’s illusions I recall. I really don’t know life at all.” I let myself be fully submerged in the feeling that song brings, a sadness at lost hope, love, illusions and felt sorry that we, as humans, try so hard to make it big, then go about doing things that bring us down, guess you could just call it even, right back where we started from. We live our lives and sometimes we begin to believe our own PR and that’s where the trouble starts. Business tycoons do it every day as money becomes more important to them than the trust people have put in them trusting them with their life savings. A preacher gets disgraced, a tycoon gets put in jail, and aren’t they both in a prison of their own making? Do I look at anyone with scorn? No. Pity? Not that either. It is with sadness and a wish that I could help make a difference somehow, and the desire to examine my own heart for things that would bring me down. The Psalmist David said Psalm 139:1 O Lord, You have searched me and known me. Then down in 23 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: Then David does the very thing he needed most to do, he gave God permission, 24 And see if there is any wicked way in me, And lead me in the way everlasting. One of the hardest things for us, as independent humans, to do, is give permission to anyone to search us and change us into the way they think we should be! Men and women try it all the time, on each other, it doesn’t work well there either. If you truly look at yourself the way others see you, you might be surprised that you are not the stellar citizen you think you are. 1Corinthians 11:31 For if we would judge ourselves, we would not be judged. When someone has wronged me, all I need is for them to admit they did it, not make excuses, and then say two simple words, “I’m Sorry”. All is forgiven and forgotten, for real. We are made in God’s image so if that is something I will accept God would also. 1John 1:9 If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. Luke 6:41-42 “It’s easy to see a smudge on your neighbor’s face and be oblivious to the ugly sneer on your own. Do you have the nerve to say, ‘Let me wash your face for you,’ when your own face is distorted by contempt? It’s this I-know-better-than-you mentality again, playing a holier-than-thou part instead of just living your own part. Wipe that ugly sneer off your own face and you might be fit to offer a washcloth to your neighbor. I’ve looked at life from both sides now, win or lose, still somehow, Jesus breaks every fetter and He sets us free! You are free!
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Thank you for stopping by for a visit! If you read my thoughts you will see that I am sometimes serious, at other times sappy or funny, occasionally I am sad and sentimental, but I am always sincere! I am a single mother who raised two children, born ten years apart and different sexes so first it was bows and dolls, pretty dresses and boys! When my son was born it was rough and tumble games, baseball, soccer, wrestling and girls! I am known for my "smile" and for my default answer to any situation, "no problem", which was something I didn't realize I did until it was pointed out to me! I am a moon watcher and a star gazer. I am astounded and feel so small knowing that every creature that has ever walked the face of this earth has gazed upon that same beautiful orb that my eyes can behold on any night when the earth is not wearing her cloak of clouds. My parents have made me the person that I am. Their love, veracity in all areas of life, humor and passion for their work and each other have given me hope that my life can actually be a happy one! Chances are if you are reading this you already know all this but again, I appreciate your stopping by! While you're here hit the "Like" button for me and thanks for checking in! View all posts by harolene