I EXIST!!

IMG_0003Matthew 10:29-31 “What’s the price of a pet canary? Some loose change, right? And God cares what happens to it even more than you do. He pays even greater attention to you, down to the last detail—even numbering the hairs on your head! So don’t be intimidated by all this bully talk.”  I saw a license plate recently that made a big impact on me, it said “I Exist”. There are times when we all feel “invisible”, maybe this person more than most, I don’t know.

I guess, at this point in time, I am the most invisible I have ever been in my whole life! Sometimes, even as adults, we play roles that disguise our real feelings, because it’s easier to be invisible than to stand and loudly proclaim that “I Exist”, less chance of getting hurt or embarrassed. When we were young we were able to pretend, the real “me” was invisible, others could only see the character I was playing! I loved to play teacher, since my playmate was 15 months older, SHE was always the teacher and I was the student, bummer! We would pretend that we had babies. My playmate had twins, always named Kimberly and Kimberly Dawn..don’t ask..I don’t know.. I had one imaginary baby, always named Susie. I now have two, grown, children, just not twins!

One day I went storming into the laundry room, in a hurry as usual! When I opened the door, my grandson, who was eight at the time, was in the middle of a big fantasy with his action figures all lined up in front of him. I was going to just ignore him so that he wouldn’t be self-conscious, but he quickly turned around accusingly and said “Why did you come in here when I had a ‘do not disturb’ sign on the door?” I said “I’m sorry, I didn’t see it!”  He put his hands on his hips and answered incredulously, “Well because IT’S INVISIBLE!” No wonder I didn’t see it!

I thought that was too funny but it makes a point for us as adults. We ASSUME that people know what we are thinking, or know that we need help, to see that we are in trouble, realize that we are hurting to the core, know that we need a little extra word of kindness on occasions, and when we don’t GET those things that we are in need of, we get our feelings hurt! We put out ‘invisible’ signals and when no one sees them we don’t understand why!

Jeremiah 17:10 “The heart is hopelessly dark and deceitful, a puzzle that no one can figure out. But I, God, search the heart and examine the mind. I get to the heart of the human. I get to the root of things. I treat them as they really are,not as they pretend to be.” God sees and knows our heart and our signs are not invisible to Him!

When my parents got married, my dad told mother, “I am not a mind reader, if there is anything you want from me you only have to ask!” Matthew 7:7-8 “Ask, and it will be given to you; Seek and you will find; Knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened.” The choir used to sing a song that said, “Call him up and tell him what you want.” OK, God already knows what’s going on inside of you, but your (spouse, friend, loved one, fellow worker) doesn’t. So before you get your feelings hurt because they don’t respond to you the way you need them to do, speak up!

I had need, back in my younger days, for $250.00, and I had a dead line to meet. I prayed and nothing happened, there were no fish with money in their mouths nor did any money drop off a tree, so I, feeling as if God had let me down, asked my dad for the money…as a loan. Of course he gave it to me and when I told him how “God had let me down”, he asked me if I thought God was a counterfeiter, of course I was surprised at the question, and I answered “No!” He said, God made it possible for ME to be able to give it to you, and if I had not been able, it would have come from some other place! I had a light bulb moment, I understood. Make your needs known to the Lord AND to each other, even if you must have a sign made for yourself that says  “I EXIST!”

One Reply to “I EXIST!!”

  1. Growing up I was able to lose Dan in the many books I read. I made at least one trip a week to the library. Nothing was more important than reading. I traveled the world in books. I read all kinds of stories even Bible ones. I had a life better than any TV family(that came later). I visualized the perfect family & home everything was as it should be. There were no problems, harsh words or other unpleasant things to deal with. But for the life of me I could never find it in real life. As I grew older I realized that my life was not as good as my dream world & it started causing me problems. I became dissatisfied & wanted more. I couldn’t have it as I dreamed so I let it cause me to withdraw & be mad at the world. It took a while for it to finally break through my pretend world & I was able to accept my real world. I realize what it was & how the enemy used it to try destroy my basic concepts of life. Thankful I had family & good friends that prayed& taught me the truth. From experience I know what unhappiness can do to you so I do all I can to help those I find hurting with the problem. God bless. I do exist & even more so through Jesus my best Friend.

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