Have you ever said, “If I were the Christian I was supposed to be I wouldn’t feel” (now fill in the blanks: fearful, jealous, envious, worthless, bitter, un-trusting, un-trustworthy, mean, despised) oh the list could go on and on, but you get my drift! Well dear Reader, the answer to that dilemma can be found in the Word.
Let’s start with a few verses from Psalm 109 Oh, God, my Lord, step in; work a miracle for me—you can do it! Get me out of here—your love is so great! —I’m at the end of my rope, my life in ruins. I’m fading away to nothing, passing away, my youth gone, and old before my time.
Psalms 40:17 And me? I’m a mess. I’m nothing and have nothing: make something of me. You can do it; you’ve got what it takes— but God, don’t put it off.
Psalm 70:5 But I’ve lost it. I’m wasted. God—quickly, quickly! Quick to my side, quick to my rescue! God, don’t lose a minute.
David, the shepherd who became a King and was known as “a man after God’s OWN heart” penned those words, so I’m thinking, if this man, who was so very close to God had sinned greatly, had a man killed so that he could have his wife Bathsheba after whom he had lusted when looking down on her while she was bathing, could feel so low, then why shouldn’t you have times that you feel “poor and needy”?
Examine yourself and see if there are any bad attitudes in you, if you find some lurking in the back of your mind then ask for agreement in prayer and tell that bothersome spirit to be gone in the name of Jesus.
Have I ever had those feelings? I would be lying to you if I said no, however, isn’t life about learning to overcome these trials? Realizing and admitting that you have a fault is all you need to do, read James 5: 16 Confess your sins (faults) to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The earnest prayer of a righteous person has great power and produces wonderful results.
I have heard it said that life is our boot camp training ground for eternity and I want to pass every test life throws at me, I imagine you feel that same way! The moment you really begin trying to conquer your “faults” a dozen things will crop up to stop you and people will test your patience until it wears so thin you can see through it, but hang on here is good news, Philippians 4:13 I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who infuses inner strength into me; I am self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency.
Psalm 139:23-24 Investigate my life, O God, find out everything about me; Cross-examine and test me, get a clear picture of what I’m about; See for yourself whether I’ve done anything wrong—then guide me on the road to eternal life.
Don’t you feel better now that you know you really are worthy?