I did something yesterday that made me feel ashamed when I thought about it.
Let me back up a little …One day I walked into my dad’s bedroom, he was sitting in his recliner, leaning forward with his hands together. He looked up at me and told in detail why he did not want a funeral. He said, “So many people say they love me, but where are they when I am teaching my lesson on Wednesday night? Why don’t they ever give me a call on the phone to see how I am or walk up my sidewalk and knock on the door to see me?
I had no answer…He then told me he didn’t want to be put in a box and have people come around and “look up my nose” saying how much they loved me, or what a good man I was… at that he sort of chuckled and sat back. He told me he wanted to be buried the day after he died without being embalmed or handled and that our immediate family should come to say a final goodbye, which is exactly what we did… to the shock and chagrin of even extended family members who still have not forgiven me for this… I don’t care, I did what I was asked to do.
The point was I wanted him to be shown the respect he deserved. To expose him to the public after his death after he had been such a towering figure, ministering to many thousands of people, just seemed wrong. I was happy I had his particular instructions to follow that left him in anyone’s mind the same strong man they remembered standing in the pulpit…and in my mind his dignity intact.
What has that to do with what I did that caused me to be ashamed of myself?
I saw a little headline in my email that said something like, “What do these stars look like now?”
I hit the link and was appalled at the blown-up lips and cheeks on once beautiful women who, as they got older, had fillers and Botox injected, making them strangely all look alike!
Suddenly…as I was about to hit the little box labeled, “Next” I realized that I was doing the very thing I was so against. These people had been caught off guard by photogs looking to make money by photographing people who had been famous stars and were now in their declining years, people who deserved privacy.
I was embarrassed and felt I was doing something very wrong and wouldn’t want any of those people to know I had peeked in at them, caught unaware.
I quickly closed that link and asked forgiveness…unheard by them but hopefully God would hear me and forgive my inappropriate behavior.
In chapter 9 of Genesis, we see that Noah’s son found him asleep and naked. From the way I read it I think he may have made fun of him when he told his two brothers, who quickly took a robe and placed it over their shoulders and backed in so they wouldn’t see him, to cover his nakedness. The other brother was cursed for what he had done.
We all deserve a little respect, now, don’t we?