ok, I admit it now…

…so in my prayer I said, “God, I don’t need a sign to give me faith in your ability to do creative miracles…I have seen many of them throughout my lifetime, I’m just asking you to heal me, in Jesus name!”

After all, the Bible says, Isaiah 53:5

But he was pierced for our rebellion,
    crushed for our sins.
He was beaten so we could be whole.
    He was whipped so we could be healed.

I remained sick, this has gone on for eight days… so I remembered the scripture in Romans 8:28, which says, And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

I thought, “Well, maybe I am just not called according to His purpose… or if this is working together for my good then I am looking for some wonderful thing to happen…soon!”

So, what’s the moral to this whining tale of being sick with something that has kicked my butt for over a week?

Last night I got desperate, it felt like there was a lead weight on my chest and was I afraid I couldn’t catch my breath, so I called my sister, Janet, and told her I needed prayer…

Matthew 18:19 “Again I say to you that if two of you agree on earth concerning anything that they ask, it will be done for them by My Father in heaven.”

While she was praying for me, I felt a release of the pressure in my mind that was holding my body captive with fearful thoughts, and I was able to relax and take a deep breath.

If you have a need, don’t be too proud or too embarrassed to ask someone you trust to agree with you in prayer and ask God for the help you need. Does He answer prayers that I pray all by myself? The answer to that is a resounding YES, but I was overpowered by the weakness in my body and the fear in my head, and I needed someone to lean on. Today is a better day…

I have learned that it is better to go ahead and put on that coat, stay warm, take my vitamins and de-stress, taking care of myself is my responsibility, I am the Temple of the Most High God, He bought me with the price of His own blood and I have vowed to do better….