This is the night of December 1, as I write, and it is hard to believe that Christmas, and my birthday, are only a few weeks away! I began to think of past birthdays and all the things I thought I wanted, I want to share these thoughts with you, perhaps you have a few you can share with me!
The year I lost my two front teeth, I remember some of the kids at church laughing and singing the song “All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth”; I don’t remember if I got my wish.
The year I turned 10 all I wanted was a “Bride Doll” and a diary, with a lock and a key. I don’t remember what secrets I intended to lock inside that pink “leather” diary, but I was never so proud of anything as I was of those two gifts.
The year I turned 16 all I wanted was a place for our family to live, we were sharing a house, on Euclid Avenue in Atlanta, with two families besides ours, and between two of the families were six children, then there was a newly wed couple and one solitary bathroom for the whole household!
The year I turned 21 my dearest friend, who was also my aunt, had an automobile collision that was near fatal on December 18, all I wanted was for her to live, then when the doctors said she would never walk again, I wanted her to be able to walk. That is the year I felt real grown-up love for someone and no matter what life brings, it is something that you never forget even to this day. The biggest and most important life change though was that I received the full experience of the Holy Ghost in my life. I got my wish as God healed my Aunt’s legs against all odds. The doctors said the bones were too crushed and that one leg was measuring more than an inch shorter. She was in a body cast from the waist down. I had one of my dreams and “saw” her up and walking on those casts, wearing red high-heeled shoes over the casts! I told her about the dream because I knew it meant she would be healed. It wasn’t long before the doctors put “boots” on the bottom of her foot casts and she bravely got up and learned to walk on those casted (is that a word?) legs and cook and care for her husband and small son.
My heart was broken as the one I loved left, going over seas during the time of the Viet Nam war, but my Aunt came out of the hospital, and on my 22 birthday, she was pregnant with her daughter!
I married one week before my 23 birthday and from that marriage had two most wonderful children and now two grandchildren. So what do I want for my birthday now? My flesh would ask for a “time machine” to go back and visit some of those “birthdays past”. That won’t happen, but as long as we have the gift of memory, we can visit any time of our life.
There are times that I would rather forget than remember, and if there are things you would rather forget, look to the scripture: Psalm 103: 12 He has removed our sins as far from us as the east is from the west.
So what do I want for Christmas/Birthday this year? I want to see and feel honest, stomach hurting, laughter; I want to feel love that isn’t conditional and be with people who live their lives with truth. A scripture that sums up the way I feel is a description of God’s own emotion: Proverbs 6:16-19 There are six things the Lord hates—no, seven things he detests: haughty eyes, a lying tongue, hands that kill the innocent, a heart that plots evil, feet that race to do wrong, a false witness who pours out lies, a person who sows discord in a family.
I want to be the best person I can be, so my birthday wish would be: Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, O God, and know my heart: try me, and know my thoughts: And see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.
I close with the words of a song: “Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me, let there be peace on earth, the peace that was meant to be, with God as our Father, brothers all are we, let me walk with my brother in perfect harmony.” Christmas countdown has begun on 23 days until Merry Christmas!