Do you ever have the feeling of “waiting for the other shoe to drop”? It can be something referred to as “floating anxiety” or generalized anxiety disorder, and while I am no expert on the why or where of this I can say I am an expert in actually experiencing it. It is described as an anxiety that cannot be pinned to any specific issue. I would add, or an issue that you are willing to admit!
So don’t get your panties in a wad I am not here to try to psycho-analyze you far from it, I am only describing to you a feeling that I’m figuring if experience it then maybe you identify with what I am saying. With me I find that the way to deal with it is to pray and ask God to show me what is going on that I need to know. There are times that I have heard a clear answer and then times that I have a dream that shows me what I need to know. More often than those wonderful spiritual revelations I am just in the dark as to what is going on so I pray saying “Hey God I am clueless here but I know that You know exactly where the prayer needs to go so I am offering up prayer for whomever it is and whatever the situation is.”
The reason I am talking about this now is that for the past few weeks actually I have been feeling a storm coming and I don’t know from which direction it is coming. When there is a new weather pattern the meteorologists have it clearly mapped out to show you where the Northern Vortex is going and how long it will last. They can see a hurricane forming out over the ocean and tell us if and where it will come ashore for us. In thinking about this today (have you ever counted how many times I use that phrase?) I remembered one of those times that I got a clear, out loud answer so I want to tell you about it, maybe it will help you if you have the feeling there is something hiding under your bed or about to pop out of the proverbial closet!
I remember exactly for whom I was praying and I was pretty desperate for an expedite answer and I was before my porcelain altar in my upstairs bathroom, kneeling on a soft, pink rug when the answer came. “There is an eye in the middle of a tornado where everything is calm, (described by a soy bean farmer who stood in the midst of the eye as being “as still as death with blue sky overhead.”), to try to get out of this storm will bring massive destruction! Any direction you go debris is flying, lightning is striking (and the wind can be up to 300 mph,) to go backwards is even worse than going forward for the force of the storm will surely devastate you. Staying in the center of My will is like standing in the eye of that tornado, as long as you remain there you are safe until the storm passes by. Be still and know that I am God.” Statements in brackets are my words, not what I heard. I was so excited when I heard those words that I couldn’t wait to convey it to the person for whom I was praying. It worked for this person and it is a good word for us all that are worried about what is before us, and warning us to never turn around and go back! I think the example of Lot’s wife turning to a pillar of salt is enough to keep me facing front and center, no turning back!
What am I trying in my muddled way to say? That although I do feel a storm on the horizon that I cannot identify, I am willing to stand still and see the Salvation of God.
So my friend while I am facing this unknown storm, or battle, I will choose to accept the words of 2 Chronicles 20:17 You will not need to fight in this battle. Position yourselves, stand still and see the salvation of the LORD, who is with you, O Judah and Jerusalem!’ Do not fear or be dismayed; tomorrow go out against them, for the LORD is with you.”