Something happened last night that fractured my emotions like a rock hitting a glass window leaving shards on the floor to be tiptoed around. Having just listened to Aretha Franklin sing a version of Bridge Over Troubled Water that left me struggling to keep the tears from flowing, I gave in and lost control.
I’ve looked at whom I am, once again, to really “find” myself! I am a daughter, mother and grandmother, three in one, who are these women? The first commandment with promise is Exodus 20:12 Honor your father and mother so that you’ll live a long time in the land that God, your God, is giving you. OK, I have and still am doing that, not just to obey a commandment, but because I wanted and love to take care of my parents. When I was young they saw to it I had all I needed and I tried to give my dad a good life for as long as he lived and now I am still doing it for my mother. I love being a mother, my kids are the greatest and I hope that I am living up to Proverbs 31:28 Her children rise up and call her blessed! Sounds good, doesn’t it? And if the law of reaping and sowing are in effect when I get old… Then there is grandmother, don’t get me started on my two, Chloe’ and Gabriel, there wouldn’t be room here to tell you all the smart things they do! The only reference in the Bible is 2 Timothy 1:5 That precious memory triggers another: your honest faith—and what a rich faith it is, handed down from your grandmother Lois to your mother Eunice, and now to you! That is wonderful! Timothy’s grandmother was responsible for his great FAITH! I want to do that for my own grandchildren! So far so good, I am happy with that, but what’s next?
I have mentioned, so indulge me, that I had a vision of my grandmother Mushegan, she spoke to me saying, “Speak to the people in words they can understand.” I thought it was odd as I felt I already DID that! But then I found myself in a position of not having opportunity to teach and so I started this devotional blog! I want to encourage you, speak, as Ephesians 4:12-15 No prolonged infancies among us, please. We’ll not tolerate babes in the woods, small children who are an easy mark for impostors. God wants us to grow up, to know the whole truth and tell it in love—like Christ in everything.
If the truth is not told in love then it comes across as just being your agenda to tell someone the way it is, according to you! If I have had an experience, or seen faith in action and share it with you in a way that you can use, then I have been successful! So I think I have found myself, I am daughter, mother, grandmother, and encourager! When I grow up I want to be an author, someone who can put wonderful words on paper (or computer screen) for people to read on a daily basis, and hey I think that is what I am doing! Is it working?
The end of this story is that I am also an “Auntie Mommy” and an “Auntie Mommy/Cousin”, an aunt and a niece, and I thought that was all until last night.
Back to what I was talking about earlier; Mother usually sits in silence most of the day but late yesterday evening she began to say she could hear my dad calling her and was upset that I didn’t hear him too. Then she began to babble and I couldn’t understand anything she was saying so I was glad when it was time to give her night meds because I knew it would settle her down a little. I have to crush her pills and put them on yogurt because she can’t swallow pills, so as I was spooning pills and prune yogurt into her mouth, which she was holding open like a little bird waiting for a worm, she looked up at me and said, very softly and clearly, “You are such a good mommy”. It startled me and I looked up to see if my daughter had heard her also, I could see by her widened eyes that she had. At first I didn’t know what to say but quickly recovered and answered, “And you are a very good daughter to me.” She smiled and said, “I try to be.” With that little exchange our communication was over for the evening…I had a hard time going to sleep.
Philippians 4:13 “I can do all things through Christ, which strengthens me!” I am counting on that!