I read a quote which said, “Live everyday as if it were your last for one day you will surely be right!” I thought on that as my parents were both fragile and nearing the time of their on trip into eternity, I remember that night after putting my folks to bed and tucking them in with the covers up under their chins, I stood for a moment in the doorway and watched them breathe. I knew sooner than later I would be communicating with them on a different level for eternity would have begun for them. In one way it is a thought that was unbearably sad, yet having lost dear loved ones and knowing they are with the Father in heaven, knowing that their life didn’t end but their envelope of flesh just finally gave out. It’s one thing for a person that has lived for 95 years to die, you can say “They lived a long good life!” and that would be true, but I heard something that makes you stop and think, the question was asked “Who wants to live to be 100?”the answer, “The person who is 99“; it’s quite different when a young person is sent sliding into eternity against their will by a drunk driver, or a foolish accident. I refuse to live in fear but it does nag at me every now and then, that is when I have to get out Psalms 91 and read it, again! Verses 1-13 says, You who sit down in the High God’s presence, spend the night in Shaddai’s shadow, Say this: “GOD, you’re my refuge. I trust in you and I’m safe!”That’s right—he rescues you from hidden traps, shields you from deadly hazards. His huge outstretched arms protect you—under them you’re perfectly safe; his arms fend off all harm. Fear nothing—not wild wolves in the night, not flying arrows in the day, Not disease that prowls through the darkness, not disaster that erupts at high noon. Even though others succumb all around, drop like flies right and left, no harm will even graze you. You’ll stand untouched, watch it all from a distance, watch the wicked turn into corpses. Yes, because GOD’s your refuge, the High God your very own home, Evil can’t get close to you, harm can’t get through the door. He ordered his angels to guard you wherever you go. If you stumble, they’ll catch you; their job is to keep you from falling. You’ll walk unharmed among lions and snakes, and kick young lions and serpents from the path.” That is my emotional safety net, the one I fall into whenever I am in trouble for I know God watches out for me. There is a beautiful song that voices my thoughts, “for I’m sheltered in the arms of God.”
So as I get ready to lay me down to sleep, I wonder if I died tonight would today have been a good last day for me? I was in a near car crash with a car coming right at my door, it was so bad that I thought I was going to die, it was true that my life did flash before my eyes and I wished I had known that was the last time I would be in church, who is going to tell my family that I am dead? It was not a good feeling. “Now I lay me down to sleep, I pray the Lord my soul to keep, If I should die before I wake, I pray the Lord my soul to take!